CiCi's Space

Have you ever noticed how hard it is to be good? What I mean is, I can have the best of intentions but somehow end up doing the exact opposite of what I meant to do. Some might say “Thats because you’re human” and while that is true, we are all flawed in some way, every day Im striving to do better than the day before. I want to live a life pleasing to God and while I know that He isn’t surprised when I mess up (quite often in fact!), Im disappointed. in myself. In truth, it’s Romans 7:18-20, that rings loud in my ears today, where Paul states it’s his sinful nature that makes him do what he doesn’t want to do. All I can say is “Thank God for Romans 8!’ which tells me I don’t have to live in condemnation because the Spirit of God lives in me and as I yield daily to Him, He will keep me on His path. Repentance….turn back to His path. I find that this is a moment by moment decision. How often we think it’s the big decisions that trip us up. I’ve discovered its those small, daily things that get me off course~ not having quiet time the first thing in the morning, losing my temper, raising my voice, watching too much Netflix instead of doing something more productive….it really is true that how a morning begins typically ‘sets the tone’ for the rest of the day.

Dear soul~if you happen to be someone who also struggles often, please know that you are not alone. While we may never meet in person, I hope that you’ve found encouraging words here as I’ve shared a bit of my story. If you don’t already enjoy quiet mornings, may I encourage you to try it for one day~maybe just 15 minutes in solitude to begin with and see how your day goes. Some people prefer prayer, breath work or meditation…whatever your choice, it’s important to just get going. I’ve noticed for myself that every morning that I begin with prayer goes much better than those days that I get derailed and start working on something else. Those prayerful mornings keep me in a positive frame of mind and the days are more productive as well. Most importantly, don’t dwell on what went wrong, just keep putting one foot in front of the other and keep moving forward:)